Irregular ranting by an Irrelevant thinker

I was sitting in a corner in the library, writing furiously in my diary, confessing about all the frustration I felt about the badluck and suffering in my life. As I was being torn apart deciding whether to take the upcoming AIIMS PG exam or to choose a Job to support my family as my father was retired from his job. A senior doctor whom I didn't know passed by my desk, and just out of curiosity asked what I was writing in the thick notebook. I tried to hide my work,but he assured me that He won't look. I replied candidly that I was penning down my frustration on all the injustice my life was doing to me. He put a hand on my shoulder and sat next to me. Told me that the pre-PG exam or the unavailability of job was not that much big deal to get frustrated. There were many worse things which I should be grateful they didn't happen to me. He sat next to me and told me his story, how he had failed his exams twice in succession , and how he was so broke he ha

Though its the end of a big leap, its not the end of the journey. On the contrary, its just the begining---of a life with responsibilities, with commitments, with appointments with struggles. Gone are the days when all you had to do was saunter round the campus in the most carefree of a stride,to gaze at the pretty girls of other colleges. Or the most activity you did other than reading was eat,sleep and bath. I know that this is a definitely crucial phase in not just my own life, but also of those who are related to me in someway or other. I see this transition as a new portal, a new door , to pass through. I don't know what is there on the other side of the threshold. Though I have got a slight notion of what could be there, but can't be sure. Life beyond internship is not just patients and clinics and degrees. Its something more profound, more demanding, more harrowing then the cozy years i have gone through. There are so many paths leading out, so many v